Wednesday, June 15, 2011


When I was growing up I always had an athletic body because I was an athlete.  Six pack abs, muscular arms and legs, and nice firm ass.  Back then I used to hate that I had small boobs and they were mostly muscle.  I remember even sitting in my room with my best friend complaining that I had no fat on my stomach to pinch.  Now that I'm older and don't work out 7 days a week, I have plenty of fat to pinch, my ass jiggles, and I only wish my pecks weren't near sagging.  I know that I'm not "fat" but I realize that my body is not a size zero.  In my line of work I have heard repeatedly that I need to "lose 10 pounds" and I need to "tone" up before I can play certain roles. 
I read an article in STAR magazine today that society has become so frantic over the female body and the idea that thin is in. In response, celebrities with eating disorders were outraged and told their story.  The stories consisted of eating disorders and the idea that society should not partake in this size zero facade.  Well, I call bullshit!  I am obsessed with my weight and my body and am constantly dieting to maintain a specific weight.  I have fat days and wear sweats and some weeks limit myself to only fruits and veggies and even then I am still ridiculed about my body.  I never had an issue with my body until Hollywood!  So to all these people writing that article- fuck you! You're probably a size zero yourself!  I am disgusted by the phony ass people who pretend like size doesn't matter! It does! It's constantly in our face and makes females so insecure about their bodies.  Including me.

Reality Strikes Again!

They say in life, "You learn something new every day." I believe this quote was supposed to represent the brain as a sponge, soaking up useful information to make better choices.  Some how we still find ourselves making the same mistakes over and over again....I believe that is the definition of a fool?  So why is it so hard to make better choices? Take for example: A woman who falls for the same type of man and 10 years later she is still single and wondering why there are no good guys left in the world.  Yes, we are all guilty of this accusation but the harsh reality is, MAYBE IT'S US!! Maybe we should learn the things we DON'T want in a relationship, and then we can work on the things we DO want.  I am one to stand my ground and have no problem cutting ties with a man that I don't see fit in my life. However, I can still be fooled by a man, although I'm getting alot better at calling bull shit! Must be all the poker I've played ;)  It seems the older ones are the best at bull shit, they have had plenty of practice.  I have been dating since I was 16 and I'm exhausted- I have no time for games or fighting for a man's time.  I'm over the one night stands- well except for Vegas week ends ;)- and I will not be second best.  Ladies step ya game up- we run the world!